Wagon Driver Please Wait I Want to Ride Again
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At the beginning of the year I decided to lose forty pounds. Half way through the year, I’ve only lost 10 – down from fourteen. I gained a few pounds over the last few weeks. How? I fell off the wagon.
FALLING OFF THE WAGON
I don’t know if I fell off the wagon or made a conscious decision to abandon the “Forty Pounds Lost” destination. What I do know is I’ve had several major celebrations which led to setbacks.
I am glad to report that my writing business is gaining more consistent, specialized clientele. However, I have not managed “me” too well. I get my work done but push off work outs until later or even skip yoga, walking, and aerobics. It’s bad but acknowledging my problem is the first step to recovery … right?
Catching the Wagon
Based on my calculations, I should have lost 20 pounds by now. I set a realistic goal of shedding 10 pounds per quarter or a little over 3 pounds a month. Now, I am in the position where I may need to adjust my expectations.
Getting Onto the Wagon – AGAIN
As I make the leap, fear and apprehension fuel my thoughts and weaken my fervor. Because I made a detour, my head is bowed in shame. Many of the women I started the Modern Mom Challenge with in January – like Michele – have since met their goals and are happily maintaining tight new bodies and wearing cute spring dresses. Not me.
My husband bought size 10 pants as a birthday gift for me in May. I had to return the new ditties for size 12 ones. Depressing? Yes and no.
Instead of hiding in the embarrassment of my failure, I will let it fuel my journey to success. I will not be the woman who loses the battle and not the weight. On February 8, 2010, I will reach into the back of the closet and slip into my size 8 wedding gown – something I have not been able to do my last three wedding anniversaries.
